Thank goodness, for those people who can give you illuminating information on aspects that you would otherwise never think of, or know. In my "rage", I managed to realize that I needed to seriously think things through. So I texted the only guy friend that I knew that could help me out to penetrate the male psyche. And that he did. He gave me some outlooks that I had never thought of, pertaining to my situation, which helped me to open my eyes. Its great to have those kind of people around. My aunt serves the same purpose also. Shows me different perspectives that I'm going to have to take into account as an adult and mature being. So that I can in turn understand and comprehend the actions, beliefs, mannerisms and behaviour of other adults, most specifically speaking my parents.

I guess I have to apologize to myself, for forsaking my rational thought before divulging into an unsatiable appetite for anger and discontentment. But then again, I'm human, and even more so, I'm NOT a male. Therefore, I function in a total different and foreign way. I guess the "giving up" quote got the better hold of me. I just hope that when I go to talk to my significant one, that he actually opens up to me, talks to be, and tries to help me to be with him, in the best way possible. As opposed to just being evasive and ignoring what I'm saying, because I have a feeling that I'll end up right back in the emotional state of the last two posts.

Its time to start praying to God for wisdom.

Thank you JH!