Sunday, July 13, 2008

Emotion and Logic Should be like Oil and Water

I have a new goal. Inspired from emotional outburts that I have had, emotional rants, and emotions wasted, I 'm going to train myself to control my emotions and keep them seperate from reality and disable them from affecting my logic and rationale. I need to learn how to keep my emotions under control and display them only when necessary. For you see, right now I'm upset. Its a horrible emotional mixture of being very worried , very angry, and very let down. Its a toxic mix, that leaves you unable to focus on one emotion. Also leaves your insides confused. The three emotions are almost polar opposites. My rational voice is fighting to get through. And its strugging to say the least. Trying to tell me to calm down, to focus on other things, and ignore the situation. But its easier said than done.
I was also thinking about the "discussion" that I had with my mom, and realized that my emotions were out of control. I couldn't keep a level head. I think this aspiration should be one of my top personal goals for 2008. This is something that I REALLY need to work on. Lower my sensitivity and know how to keep my emotions under control, without having to do erratic or eccentric activities to do so. Just having the bare mind power to do it. Or not even that much work. Just me having the internal instinct to do it.

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