I'm going to keep this as short as I can. I have to start a paper! Its due in 3 days, I have TONS of research to do, and I haven't started yet. Procrastination SUCKS. But, I'm here in my room, listening to my chosen soundtrack for the night. The music of his sleep. Its in THESE moments where I feel the connection of my heart to him. You know, I haven't spoken to him all day. And didn't get a chance to speak to him that much yesterday... And I have my little problems with an issue thats been recurring lately. But, I sit here and listen to him sleep. Make sure that his breathing is straight, that everything is alright. I can't be with him physically, so this is definately the next best thing that I can do. Deep down, I could never say that I didn't love him. Despite what has happened in the past, I love this guy. At times, saying those very words, kind of overwhelms me. Overwhelms me with surprise at the fact that I'm in love with someone. That I'm actually in love. And yeah I realize that me being in this emotional position, could possibly end up with me getting hurt. Sometimes it does work out that way. But, in this moment, even though I'm not all happy go lucky, with jittery emotions, I love you. You have some how managed to captivate my heart. Lol, even whether I like it sometimes or not. I love you! I know that I will evetually hang up... orrrrrr I may even just leave the phone on the whole night, like I do at times, and wait for you to wake up in the morning, say good morning and set me up for my day. I only wish for our relationship to get better. And grow, no matter what our label is. Just constant positive progression. Once again, I love you!
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