December 24th. 2008. 1:34

Its' been a while since I last posted. A lot of shit has happened since then. A lot of lessons learned? Maybe.. A lot of life lived?...Maybe not. Even though, I haven't posted since October, I've still been writing habitually. Don't know if I could live, and not write..its become a great part of me now. Lol, I find myself wondering what I was doing withOUT it before... Anywho, reading over the entries of times past.. way too many of them have to do with the same person. The same person, who in all truth, does not deserve that kind of attention. Yes, he had an integral part of in my life. But thats exactly what he had. A PART in my life. He was not my entire life. I won't be living like that anymore. Ironically though, I will post something that will seem to have to do with him, I will not be going into this upcoming year, with my focus and energy, regardless of whether it be positive or negative, concentrated on one person, unless it is me. Anyways, wrote this earlier. Alicia Keys' Troubles, was the song I played while I wrote it.

Update December 28th 4:15 am..

I had a poem I guess you could call it that I had written during a sad emotional episode earlier this week, that stemmed from a situation that happened with Him. He doesn't deserve that kind of emotional dedication, so I removed this piece. It just wasn't right for my mind to have been in that kind of state. I haved it saved somewhere here.. But publicy? He won't recieve any kind of indirect of direct attenion from me. The live version of Troubles by AKeys as shown below is a favourite of mine though, so that stays:)